And here we go again.



I know I get all scared with things that happen but I cannot help it. I am scared thaat everything will go to hell and I will be alone, without him. In fact I don't know what scares me the most: the fact that I may have to live my life without him or with him?

It's not a hard decision, if he was here...beside me right now... but he is too far away, for too long, if I may add. I have no idea what I'm going to do or how this will end.

I miss him, I cannot even describe how much, but .... I don't know what will happen.

And that scares me.. a lot....

Love, Susan