Wednesday, 15 July 2009

Decisions, resolutions etc

The time has come for me to make a final decision, and as usual I have to think too much and too hard, as always. This time I'm thinking only about myself. And even though last night I was brought to thinking that someone close to me really cares about me and wishes me the best, I found out this morning that it is all not so true.

But I tend to get carried away with my imagination, and that's my biggest flaw. Also I think too much :D

Everything will be solwed once I get away from here, alone.

And that is probably the smartes decision I have ever made.

Love, Susan

Monday, 6 July 2009

Walking away..

It would be so great to just walk away form here, but unfortunately I don't have enough courage to do it. I don't know what scares me that much but I just simpy cannot pick my stuff and just leave....

Leave everyone and everything behind, because I am getting sufficated here. My abillity to make smart decisions slowly disappears. In a month or so, I will be so caught up in them that I will just break down, and I know what comes after that.

So now, I need to think of a gettaway plan, from everyone. I don't care if I will hurt someone... this time I think only about myself.

Love, Susan