It would be so great to just walk away form here, but unfortunately I don't have enough courage to do it. I don't know what scares me that much but I just simpy cannot pick my stuff and just leave....
Leave everyone and everything behind, because I am getting sufficated here. My abillity to make smart decisions slowly disappears. In a month or so, I will be so caught up in them that I will just break down, and I know what comes after that.
So now, I need to think of a gettaway plan, from everyone. I don't care if I will hurt someone... this time I think only about myself.