Decisions, resolutions etc

The time has come for me to make a final decision, and as usual I have to think too much and too hard, as always. This time I'm thinking only about myself. And even though last night I was brought to thinking that someone close to me really cares about me and wishes me the best, I found out this morning that it is all not so true.

But I tend to get carried away with my imagination, and that's my biggest flaw. Also I think too much :D

Everything will be solwed once I get away from here, alone.

And that is probably the smartes decision I have ever made.

Love, Susan

Viva la Vida

I get bored easily and that's whay I tend to make mistakes and do what I'm not supposed to. But, I cannot help it. I'm doing my best these days not to make mistakes and to make good decisions, but sometimes it is hard to be good all the time. For some, it's impossible.


If necessary, I can pretend that I don't care or that I am not interested about what people think of me. But, most of the time I find myself so worried about the same thing. I cannot allow myself to do this or that because someone may think I am not as good as they thought I was.

And that's my main problem. I am worried about something that I cannot control. Suppresing my real person for somone that I don't even care about too much.
Gotta get ou of those thoughts and live ... :D

Love, Susan

No way to live

Everything has changed. I cannot say how it will end and what effect will have on all of us, but I hope it will end up good. Otherwise, I don't think I will be able to handle everything. Too much of all these things might just make me go crazy... I wish it was all so easy. I wish he would come back, so that we can see if this can work. Now, I am just stucked here. I am not moving forward and I certainly don't want to go back.

And that's no way to live......


Love, Susan