Yes I know I have issues, and I know I don't know how to deal with them. It's not easy, it's not smart to be like that but... right now I can't change it. Or at least I think I can't. Running in circles, again. It's really not fair, I'm trying to make decision, well not just one... So here are some questions I need to answer, and I need to be as honest as I can:
1. Do I still love him?
2. Do I want to spend the rest of my life (or many years) with him?
3. Am I ready to move far away from here with him?
4. If I am ready to do that, what are my reasons?
5. Do I want to stay with someone who doesn't feel the way I feel (or am I just imagining that?) ?
6. What about the things that are going on right now?
7. What do I feel about this one?
8. Do I want him to be my friend, or I want more?
9. What does he feel?
10. How should I decide?
If I could answer them, I think everything would be much much easier.... Until then...